Thursday, August 04, 2005

Dylan & Caeden


Here is The Princess and The Prince. Yes, she is hugging him and strangling him all in the same moment. I think this picture sums up the sibling relationship perfectly.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Waking Up and Waiting

So it's almost midnight, and I should have gone to bed a few hours ago, but i haven't figured out my life yet, so I'm still awake. Actually Chris and I spent the last few hours talking about our collective life, and finally we figured that if we didn't have clarity by 11PM then more talking was probably not going to help tonight. We may have to resort to another round of praying and listening and just spend another day in the land of waiting. But just one more day because then I've had it! I mean really. What does God think He's doing making everything such a complete mystery! It is maddening I tell you, and I won't have any more of it!...... Wouldn't it be funny if we could "lobby" God. Or even if we could reason with him? I think God just has a big ol'chuckle when I get upity with him. I do try to be humble. I really do. I pray and I am quiet and I breathe. But the whole time what is going on in that other half of my brain, the half that thinks we should be able to reason with him, is "O.K. Look how patient I am being. See? Wow, that prayer sounded good! We are really getting somewhere now! This time, he's definately going to see how serious I am and how patient I have been and he is surely going to give me some clear direction because I deserve it." And then I wait. And I expect some kind of wisdom to be revealed. And right about that time the cat starts yowling, or the children break into the room and start yelling, or the phone starts ringing, and my carefully orchestrtated plan to woo God into giving away one of his secrets is blown to smitherenes. And as I fuss with whatever entity has invaded my psychic space, I hear him chuckle. Then when I am calmer, I feel him pat my head and tell me that he is not hiding anything from me. And I just have to wait.

Asking questions is good. It means you are awake. I haven't shared my thoughts for awhile, partly because I wasn't fully awake yet, and partly because I have been very busy waiting. For some reason, I think it is time for me to get some more folks in on this waiting thing. At least we could have some fun together while we wait. Anybody got some cards? And while we play, and we wait, I'll share a bit of what I am waiting for and maybe you can share some too. What do you say?